| Wednesday, November 30th, 2005 |
| 7:31 pm |
I say FUCK THE WORLD!!! no 1 gives a shit about me so why should i bother living. Im leaving the state in 10 days and none of friends have even bothered to contact to say goodbye...well i say FUCK YOU ALL. Current Mood:  pissed off |
| Saturday, November 26th, 2005 |
| 5:04 pm |
Take the quiz: "Wut Kind Of Drink Are You"
 VodkaPARTY ANIMAL!!! you love to have fun and lots of it, thats why vodka fits you the best Current Mood:  drunk |
| Thursday, November 3rd, 2005 |
| 7:15 pm |
Its such a relief. I had my psychology exam (yr 12) 2day and it was easier than i thought it would b. I dont know wat i was so worried about. There were a couple of q's that were hard, but its cool i just babbled shit to fill in the blanks. Now all i have 2 do r my yr 11 exams, theyll b easy enough though. So now i can stop stressin and continue to b depressed for no apparent reason. YAY :( Current Mood:  relieved |
| Tuesday, October 25th, 2005 |
| 8:41 pm |
Im so sick 2 death of evry1. The one person i thought i could trust has gone and abandoned me, he wont even talk to me ne more, well he can go and fuck himself. Everythin started to turn good and now it has turned to complete utter shit again. Ive been so depressed and ive been skippin my meds (which prbly isnt a good idea seeing as though they were starting to help me). Well at least its only my moods that hav fucked up so far and my psychotic symptoms are still at a minimum. Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: my chemical romance |
| Friday, October 7th, 2005 |
| 8:26 pm |
Thats soo true ive always wanted to be a cat!!! Current Mood:  artisticCurrent Music: Lenny Kravitz-Are you gonna go my way |
| 8:23 pm |
Current Mood: creativeCurrent Music: Tear my heart open-Papa Roach |
| 8:17 pm |
Current Mood: creativeCurrent Music: Highway to hell-ACDC |
| 7:17 pm |
I got back from the hossy today. It turns out i dont have epilepsy, not even any signs. My EEG results were all normal. YAY! The sons of bitches sleep deprived me all week, so now im really tired but i cant sleep anyway..oh well, shit happens. I have all this glue shit stuck in my hair (on my scalp) and it wont come out. Current Mood:  tired |
| Wednesday, September 28th, 2005 |
| 8:29 pm |
Im leaving this shit hole!!!
I cant wait. Were movin 2 QLD at the end of the year. Its gonna b soooo good. I finally get 2 leave this fucked up shit hole ive called home for the past 17 years. Everything is starting to turn around (for the better). My meds are workin, i dont feel as suicidal or depressed, i havnt hallucinated for almost a month and all my other creepy psychotic symptoms are pretty much gone. The only bummer is that im leaving all my friends behind, ive only just recently stopped being anti social. Well at least im goin 2 a place that doesnt know me and i can start afresh. Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: Cat Empire-car song |
| Tuesday, August 16th, 2005 |
| 5:17 pm |
 | You scored as Goth. Your A Goth!
Rocker, Mosher | | 80% | Goth | | 80% | Skater | | 40% | Emo | | 30% | Prepy | | 20% | Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev | | 10% | Trendy | | 10% | </td>
What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t
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| You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.
Unipolar Depression | | 100% | Schizophrenia | | 33% | Eating Disorders | | 33% | Borderline Personality Disorder | | 33% | Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder | | 33% | Antisocial Personality Disorder | | 17% | </td>
Which mental disorder do you have?
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 | You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to know hwo you will commit suicide, take a look at your second highest percentage on the bar graphs.
Suicide | | 100% | Disappear | | 80% | Gunshot | | 67% | Bomb | | 47% | Accident | | 47% | Stabbed | | 40% | Suffocated | | 40% | Drowning | | 33% | Disease | | 33% | Eaten | | 33% | Cut Throat | | 13% | Natural Causes | | 0% | Posion | | 0% | </td>
How Will You Die??
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Current Mood: depressed |
| Friday, August 12th, 2005 |
| 8:06 pm |
I went to see a neurologist today. The results of my EEG were inconclusive. I have to go have more tests done. Fuck this is shitting me. I jus wanna know what the fuk is wrong with me.I have a shit load of homework...YAY!!!...I better do my homework this time or ill fall way way way behind Im already behind at the moment. I dont get it...I used to be a straight A student doing all advanced subjects now im failing maths and doing really shit in psych. Everything is really fucked up and im sick of it. I just want to be normal again. Current Mood:  exhausted |
| Tuesday, August 9th, 2005 |
| 8:33 pm |
My meds are finally starting to work. Im not hallucinating all that much. All the other weird shit is starting to disappear.But im still really paranoid, especially at school. And i dont feel particulary suicidal, only a little, which is good i guess. Ive tried my hardest not to be anti social, coz im starting to really hate humans again. Current Mood: irritatedCurrent Music: The best of red hot chilli peppers |
| Saturday, July 30th, 2005 |
| 6:37 pm |
Well today hasnt been much better. I sick to death of being so fucked up. I spent the day brooding in my room reading harry potter. Great huh? *laughs sarcastically* More than ever i want to end all th is bullshit.An overdose of my meds might do the trick. Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: Rancid-Undestructible-Great CD!! |
| Friday, July 29th, 2005 |
| 11:16 pm |
Well today has been fucked. All week ive sunk into a depressive state after being hyper/very happy the previous week. I contemplated jumping off a cliff but decided it was too small to actually die from impact. I would've just ended up with nasty cuts,bruises and broken bones, so i didnt. Then to top it off my boyfriend dumped me. he was the only one i could truly talk to and i pushed him away. With my not so nice qualities i pushed him away....it was my own stupid fault. SO now i hate myself more than ever. I hacked the shit out of my wrists again and i wrote apeom which didnt help at all. Grrrr Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: Evanesence-depressing just like me- |
| Tuesday, July 26th, 2005 |
| 7:27 pm |
Well i hacked the shit out of my wrists again last night, i didnt have control over it it was weird, i ususally have control over it but this time i didnt...strange...School sucked as usual. I gotta do my speech on mental health stigma tomorrow yay..not..i keep getting the feeling that my boyfriend is gonna dump me coz i reakon hes sick of all the bullshit attached to me...dispite feelin rather depressed and exhausted im still bouncy Current Mood: exhausted |
| Monday, July 25th, 2005 |
| 5:45 pm |
Well i went to see the psychiatrist today. Load of good that was. All she told me was that there were abnormalities in my EEG again. Now i have to see a neurologist to get it fully explained. Plus she increased my meds how fun yay *sighs*. At least i got to sleep in so i didnt do my speech or the biology test i was suppose to do. Im plotting death again. Current Mood: annoyed |
| 5:42 pm |
I got this fisrt go YAY!! Current Mood: annoyed |
| Sunday, July 24th, 2005 |
| 6:16 pm |
Well i feel suicidal again. Told you it wouldnt last long. Meh who cares, i sure as hell dont. I havnt done any thing about it yet. I see the psychiatrist tomorrow to go over my EEG results how fun. Not. Shit i have to give a fuckin speech tomorrow as well. I shouldve practised it over the weekend. Shit happens its only year 11. Wont matter only next year counts. Current Mood: annoyed |
| Monday, July 18th, 2005 |
| 9:24 pm |
I went to judo for the first time in 2 months tonight, damn it felt good to be back. I dont feel suicidal any more. Who knows how long thatll last. Well i promised Marg and Mandy that i wouldnt kill myself any time soon so i wont. Well nighty night all. Mwah!! Current Mood: content |
| Sunday, July 17th, 2005 |
| 7:52 pm |
The other day i went to see my psych and she told my mum about my self harming. THats so fucked up. Last night i hacked the shit out of my wrists jus for some release, it bled for fuckin ages, it felt good. I was in control again. Im so fuckin agro at the moment i want to stab the shit out of me. Well got nothin else to say so adios! Current Mood: enraged |
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